Getting off track…

Posted on July 29th, 2007
Filed Under Everyday life, Ramblings |

I feel as if I’m going off track with my weight loss effort. I just feel depressed over something I’m not even sure of. What’s worst is that it seems I don’t have my family’s support. I got a comment from my mother the other day that really felt like a thorn in my heart.

We were having supper (mom, dad, & me), and I just didn’t want to be bothered because they were complaining about my sister. So I was zoning out because I just wanted to eat and then leave. Then they try bringing me into the conversation and I responded, “Don’t bug me. I like to eat in peace. Pretend I’m not here. Pretend I’m invisible.” Those were pretty much my exact words. Then my mother responded with “You’re a big girl. You can’t be invisible.” I felt like getting up and taking off out of the house. I was so angry that she even said a comment like that because it hurts alot, especially coming from a loved one. Don’t you think I know I’m a big girl which is why I am trying to lose weight in the first place? Don’t they know how much it hurts when they say stupid comments like that?

So of course I turn to comfort food…big, big mistake. I didn’t even weigh myself for three days because I just felt like giving up. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t have the support I so desperately seek from my family. It just seems like….I dunno…I’m just so frustrated!

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