Happy Halloween!

Posted on November 1st, 2007
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I forgot to post this yesterday but I wanted to wish you all a Happy Halloween. Here’s a Halloween cartoon I found on the web that I thought would be appropriate to share on this blog. LOL!

[edit]: image removed.

Getting off track…

Posted on July 29th, 2007
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I feel as if I’m going off track with my weight loss effort. I just feel depressed over something I’m not even sure of. What’s worst is that it seems I don’t have my family’s support. I got a comment from my mother the other day that really felt like a thorn in my heart.

We were having supper (mom, dad, & me), and I just didn’t want to be bothered because they were complaining about my sister. So I was zoning out because I just wanted to eat and then leave. Then they try bringing me into the conversation and I responded, “Don’t bug me. I like to eat in peace. Pretend I’m not here. Pretend I’m invisible.” Those were pretty much my exact words. Then my mother responded with “You’re a big girl. You can’t be invisible.” I felt like getting up and taking off out of the house. I was so angry that she even said a comment like that because it hurts alot, especially coming from a loved one. Don’t you think I know I’m a big girl which is why I am trying to lose weight in the first place? Don’t they know how much it hurts when they say stupid comments like that?

So of course I turn to comfort food…big, big mistake. I didn’t even weigh myself for three days because I just felt like giving up. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t have the support I so desperately seek from my family. It just seems like….I dunno…I’m just so frustrated!

Not seeing any big changes…

Posted on July 26th, 2007
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Well, the other day I finally weighed myself after the long trip to the Dominican Republic, I still weigh roughly around the same weight, 288lbs to be exact. I seriously thought I was going to gain 20lbs because of all the food and drinks at the buffet in our resort. Thankfully, I didn’t.

I still have alot of work to do in order to get down to the 200lbs I so eagerly want to weigh. Some say 200lbs is still alot… : but honestly, it’s better than the 298.5lbs I weighed initially. I seriously can’t wait to be down to that weight. Too bad there’s no easy fix or snap your finger and you weigh that much. Dammit! LOL! Oh well…it’s hard work and determination that will drive me to achieve that weight.